I know I will have to grow myself to be a better person, for myself, and not for h.
That is exactly what you need to do,, and it sounds easy but it is HARD work so good for you for doing this! It is vital for you and yes your Marriage will benefit greatly from it!
Just in January my H was still saying our R wasn't good. Wasn't like he needed.... an hour long convo of my negative qualities....... A SEVERE PANIC ATTACK LATER..... HE SAID THIS to me.... " STOP worrying about me I AM FINE ~worry ABOUT YOU!" " I LOVE YOU EVERYTHING IS FINE,,,, JUST WORRY ABOUT YOU AND CHANGE!" hurt ,, BUT THAT KICK IN THE a@* WAS exactly what I needed I was starting to hold my breath again and stand still. ~FEAR~ Don't do it honey,, grow and change and be the best you there is,, anything is possible! GOD BLESS...
