LL, I just got finished reading your last few days of frustration...you seem to know that your h is trying...yet you say he's not doing the things you want him to... You are still bitter about the ow, give yourself the time to heal and to forgive your h.I probably have no room to talk, but I feel that until you can resolve your feelings of all that has happened to hurt you and truly move on, that your m will not start to heal the way it should. How can it.
Again, I really have no experience in what will work when the spouse comes home, but he is home and has said many things to you to reassure you, let them be the small steps...look for the positive each day...I have said all along how I envy you...you have been so strong and I know that you have been working on it a lot longer than I have..yes, you are entitled to being tired of it all, that is when you have to step back...refoccus on how far you have come..
take care
SUe