Quote: When it comes to your feelings of not being loved, and him not working on the R, how have you been on "asking for what you want", and "catching him doing things right"?
yes, yes, yes, I have made it very crystal picture clear what it is that I want...and I have been told it will come with time. (sorry if I need it now, so I sent myself flowers and initiate my own hugs but sorry I refuse to attempt to initiate sexual contact as I am tired of the rejection faced over the years, I plan all the "dates" cause h just never get's around to it or comes up with anything so even when it is left to him I still have to decide what to do, but I am not bothering this year for valentines day (which no doubt will mean we will be at home and get take out and watch tv. wooo hooo way to woo your woman!!)
I have said many times in many different ways what it is I want and need. and when he's " done good" I am certain to let him know and not with a "see this is what I want why can't you" attitude either, I am just thankful and appreciative in return, sometimes smile and sometimes tears of joy that have to be explained cause h doesn't understand those.
as I've said I have painted a clear picture for h of what it is I want and what it is I need. some of them (like being the one to pick something to do and say hey hon I got a sitter let's go ____!) just aren't him and he's not willing to try something new.
don't get me wrong...things are obviously better than they were before h left, but not where I want them to be and I don't really feel progress with h and I, yes progress as parents, progress as homeowners but as true companions??? lovers??? friends??? I don't feel progression there, maybe it's just me and my damn misserable defeatest attitude??
we'll see what tommorrow brings.
LL has left the building!
btw thank you all for stopping by today, I'll stop by and see if I can spread some cheer when I get out of my funk wich knowing me will be tommorow morning!
