I have No advise to offer except that you are not alone. Most of your sitch is like mine except that nobody except my Wife the OM and myself know about the affair. It is hard to resist holding hands and such but I want to so bad. But I am trying to wait for that day I wife reaches out first to hold my hand. sounds like your wife has done this.There is still hope. Hang in there...
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know