I have been trying to make this r work for too long! there is a bag of letters up in h's drawer that are old! (some over ten years old) me expressing the same feelings I have now. h has never expressed his emotions to me not even emotions for me but emotions or feelings about anything in general. it must just be that I am not the one that does it for h, some people are foolish enough to think there is a "one" out there for them, the "one" that holds the key to open them up... I am not that person for h and ow was. there is nothing I can do about it anymore. h never wanted to open up to me and still doesn't.
