W is talking more about moving out. She seems to be in a very conflicted place right now. She is furious with me for talking to our older two (adult) children. I talked to my mom, who suggested we get back together (she is very compassionate) and hopes that I not D.

I had to get an STD test. The doctor asked why, I told him, what am I supposed to say? Lie?

Sure I was emotional when I told our older two kids. Probably if I was calm, I would not have. How could I be non-emotional and clearly thinking?

I care a lot about how she is feeling, but that does not change what I feel either. I sense confusion, anger. Perhaps some of you folks can enlighten me as to other possible issues.

I think she is in a place where she blames me, for all the bad things that have happened to her.

One of her email comments " ... I would not have been so stupid as to have given you a disease..."
I think to myself, what a bogus comment... condoms break, her OM has likely had multiple partners since his D. A condom is not a fail safe device!

So what should I do, be patronizing, kind, go out of my way? Or should I disconnect? Let her go if she wants to?

IS 49 W 47 S 21 D 19 S 16
M 24y Together 31y
EA Mar04-May 06
PA Feb06-Jun06 EA May07
Bomb Dec 28 07

Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage which we did not take, towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden.
T. S. Eliot