LL, sorry that you have been up and down the past few days...you always manage to help me out, and I am not sure what to say...maybe you are trying too hard for everything to be "the way they were" too soon...take each positive, no matter how small and grasp it for the time...waiting for the next one.People change and maybe our spouses are never going to be the same as they were, and guess it is our choice to accept them for what they have to offer us now. Sounds like you are keeping busy, and I sure have found that by shifting from "poor me, what if m does not work out", or "why doesn't he call, hug me"...whatever you want to fill in there, to "It is a great new day and I am going to do something positive today for myself else"..it sure keeps the mind open and healthy. Take care Sue
