Quote: I can't remember if you have mentioned whether you have discussed this with H. What are his thoughts? If he does show support, it can be something that leads to bringing the two of you closer.
honestly, h doesn't care much what I do, he'd be happy if I worked at walmart for christ sake.
yesterday was decent.
spent the evening hanging more pics in cave, gee nice way to spend "my" birthday, doing more of h's [censored].
went to bed...h stayed up to watch end of show that we didn't even see the first half of. h eventually came to bed. but I woke in the middle of the night to find h not there. h was in sons bed. sorry folks who might find that touching, I think it sucks, h woke in the middle of the night and instead of reaching for me, he gets up and goes to sons bed. gee wonder who he really came home for???
I am tired, so very very tired of waiting for this man to love me. I will not wait anymore. h can stay home and be a father to his beloved children, I will cook and clean, I will enjoy my life, on occasion I will enjoy the physical pleasures that h occasionally offers, but as far as a fullfilling r with h? aint gonna happen, not now, not in a few years, never!!! I speak from experience, I have known this man for more than 13 years, if this is just the way he is then pity on him, if this is the way he is with me because he just doesn't "have it" for me, then pity him.
I'm tired of waiting, tired of the silence, tired of not knowing what the hell is going on in that little brain of his.
so folks, a walk a way wife I cannot be, but I'm out!
