So my last thread locked up. Geez how many is that now. I guess about one a month or so. That makes about 8.
I am really angry and frustrated right now. Our plan was to go to the movies together tonight but our schedules just weren't cooperating. My wife said she really wanted to go and we deferred to the weekend. But we kept the plan for our kids to go home with close friends after school. Well after work I swing by to pick them up. They were upset at this because they didn't get a lot of time with their friends and second they didn't know the plans for the evening had changed. Grr why the devil could she not tell them this morning? I know, she wasn't thinking about anyone but her. So I get the pleasure of two kids who are angry about the change and not being aware of it. This all lead to me and the girls arguing about attitudes during our times together.
I am just so sick of her thinking only of herself. I am not sure I will be able to keep a positive attitude around my wife tonight when I drop the kids off. I just so badly want to tell her what I really think. This sh1t is hurting everyone and I am sick of it all. I am sick of being away from my family, sick of the pain I see in my kids eyes, sick of her indifferent attitude and especially sick of her walking away from a loving, supportive, dedicated husband.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
