Oh man LL. I can totally identify with your post! Quote:
"h is here for his children, h is here for his "cave", h is here becuase it is the choice that has the least repricussions financialy, emotionally, respectfully (?) h is here but I am not."
I have been struggling with these feelings too! You go on to say:
I want to run away!!!!
this is not a new feeling either, this is how I felt before h's ea, before he left... the feelings were gone when h came home... then he was "trying" now he's just here and that is supposed to be enough? what type of a r is that. I know nothing of him. something is terribly wrong. if h never leaves again.... perhaps 20 years from now...I will!!! or maybe I'll just build him an in-law suite and he can go live in it!!"
I too am so frustrated with my "live in" MLC h. My h is balking at joint counselling, any kind of marriage talk, and also attempted an EA some months ago that appears to have fizzled (it was not reciprocated by her and he has NO idea I know about the email attempts on his part).
My h is working 2 jobs, has many expensive "hobbies and toys" that do not include me, and is driving us to financial disaster with his me! me! me! mentality! (Huge financial debt here). He also expects me to pay the "basic bills" so that he can have his toys! I CANNOT DO THAT. I make only 25% of what he makes. And I have put my dtr (his stepdaughter) thru 5 yrs of private school @ more than $4,000 a year!!(with absolutely NO help from him). He makes over $100,000 a year.............I make $20,000 a year. It just makes me SO angry that he expects my dtr and I to be finacially depend from him!
I'm sorry I didn't mean to hijack your post. Please forgive me. I am so angry on one hand and despondant on the other hand. I hear your frustration and despair SO well. Take care LL. One day at a time I guess. I will try here too. <<<HUGS>>> We are going to be ok. It's just the dang process that hurts so bad.
