LL, sorry about previous post. I think I was rude and did not think for you very well...
Quoting lostlove:I want to run away!!!...
this is not a new feeling either, this is how I felt before h's ea, before he left... the feelings were gone when h came home... then he was "trying" now he's just here and that is supposed to be enough? what type of a r is that. I know nothing of him. something is terribly wrong.
I have to say you are right that there is something wrong, and now I can relate how you feel. It must be hard to live happily with your H when you cannot feel his heart is around. I can see why you would feel that you are the one that could be walking away!
The only thing I want to say is please do something nice to youself, especially for this B-day, in addition to what your H is preparing for you. Leave your H's part as a surprise or bonus; you deserve being treated well, at least by yourself. Short of walking away, I would say you should perhaps go out take a course, grab a beer, go to museums, in addition to book clubs and CPR classes you are already doing. Something special just for our LL. Something by yourself for yourself. You can do that, and you can be happy; then you can be happy in your M.
