As you can see it's been a while since my last post, business travel, work, trying to be there for the boys, little left for self. So much has gone on, but no change in the path.
I found out W actually contacted her L while I was out of town on a business trip, some three weeks before our last MC. It coincided w/ a phone call I made while traveling. While I was out of town I had seen on a news station that home was getting hit w/ very severe weather and tornadoes. I called to find out how F was doing. Took this as being critical of her abilities and called her L office that night.
Anyway I got served back on 5/21. W's already turned in her parenting plan. She's offering me 1 night a week and every other weekend. Also wants me to pay her L fees. She's more wacked than I thought she was. I've already had my first meeting w/ my L. I've got a bad feeling this is going to be one of those really nasty D.
W is supposedly moving into an Appt. this next week. She's acting like it's some big secret. W shows up late for something or doesn't show @ all then tells me she had an errand to run. She's been out buying stuff for the appt. S3 is always happy to volunteer what he and M have been doing.
S8 is starting to have problems. He's been going to his school counselor when ever he feels down. He's been going 3 or 4 time/week.
W is doing everything she can to "sway" Ss to her. Before, she would allow minimal TV, sweets, unruliness. You know all the things kids want. Now, it unlimited TV, candy and ice cream for dessert every night and the kids can do no wrong. So I have to be the bad guy and say no. She portrayed the S and her appt. as a vacation home w/ new bunk beds and bicycles for them.
I'm through w/ the attempts to work on things for the M and R. There is no attempt of DB. The hatred has set in towards this woman for destroying 15 yrs of R and the F that Ss deserve. W priorities are most important. All else is sacrificed to accommodate. W will make S3 ride around in soiled underware for 3 hours b/c she had things to do.
As for self, not much to say. Not doing a whole lot. Not really any time. Spending as much as possible w/ Ss to make sure they feel most important. Working on other things as time available. GP wanting to help as much as they can. Wanting to spend time w/ boys or help me out if possible. Tired, just very tired. Wishing all was already over and realizing it's only just started. Certain times, when normally would have some alone time w/ W, no one around. Becomes very lonely. Anniversary coming up 6/3. Would have been 12 yrs. W couldn't even remember date. When she filed the paperwork, she listed date as 6/5. I guess this tells me how much she really cared about it-not much. Tryng to think what I can do to have something planned to keep spirits up. Have a hard time deciding to try to work on self. Should be spending time w/ Ss.