well folks seems I've filled up yet another thread so here's a new one!
the title "you never know" hmmm well as some of you may recall I have been considering taking on a part time job or going back to school for a masters but there has been some issue of paying for school soooooo...
last night I went and took a cpr course that was being organized by one of the members of my book group. (she needed a certain number of attendants to hold the class, so I volunteered to go, after all knowing cpr is a good thing) So the class was given by the two members of our towns ambulance company, the rest of the "employees" are volunteers. the town pays for all education (even up to the paramedic level) and supplies uniforms and all that stuff, all that is required is a two year commitment (i assume the commitment is a bit longer the more education they pay for) one night a week "on call" with a beeper, and one weekend day/night a month.
hmmmmm... interesting, my family has worked in the medical feild my dad is a ff (firefighter) emt, my bro was an emt and now a ff, my other bro worked for a chair car (transported patients to and fro) and my mother works in medical transcription so I am not ignorant to the realities of the medical field. this is something that would cost me nothing but a bit of time and commitment.
I would be contributing to my community gaining a valuable education at no real cost to myself or my family. I may find that the "job" is something that I enjoy and could go on to get a paid position if nothing else I'd gain experience and some self confidence something good to put on a resume an opportunity to feel more a part of the community (and meet more people in town)
so then "you never know" where you will find inspiration. right now I am inspired, we'll see when I get back the results of my cpr "test" if I pass with flying colors then I will go speak to the director of the ambulance co. he ran the course and is looking for new recruits (5 actually)
hmmmmmm!!
as far as the h sit? things are things. I got a bit emotional last night after a physical encounter (emotions run high then I guess) and h asking what was wrong I couldn't help but say "I just want you to love me" and h replied I do love you. then we laid down to go to sleep and h said no more, I said "I know you don't know what to say to comfort me" h said " I am sorry, I want to be here with you and the kids" (ok I know the kids are important but adding them in seems to dismiss the "us" a bit) I go downstairs for a bit to regain some composure, when I return I appologize for getting upset (am I insane? I have every right to get upset) said I try not to, h says I know, I say "I just don't know how you feel" h says "I've told you how I feel" (ya many different things like half of you wants to be here with me and the kids and the other half wants to be with pitiful ow) I say again, yes but I'm telling you that I don't know how you feel.
that is that...
dd woke at 4 am??? dd slept and woke every so from 4am on at one point son even came to my room to let me know she was awake (she woke him up) eventually I gave up trying to get her to go back to sleep and came downstairs with her and s at 6 ugh!
h off to work after my filling him with toasted donught and english muffins (the kids had english muffins and yogurt) h made my tea this am, I made his coffee.
h supposedly will be home early today as he only has some "stuff" to do in the office. "just a couple hours"
so the kids and I are off to drop off book club books to new members, get an oil change, pick up gift for new baby at neighbors, find a snow suit for dd, copy a pic for h's "cave" and whatever other fun we can find.
have to think about how to start at the gym... go a night by myself to get comf with the place? start with a trainer on the circuit? start with an areobics class? start during the day with the kids in their day care?
so as you can see some things to think about here, but at least they are MY things and not h r things.
