Thank you all for your input here and for the PMs received.
Thought of replying to my W with the following:
“Dearest ???? I have read your email regarding your wishes. I know that I have done you many wrong in the past and said many things (that I never meant), to hurt your feelings. I am sorry for all the pain I have caused you and to relive them in my heart again and again gives me so much pain and sorrow. I know you feel that my intensions were insincere and I cannot change any of that. Only God knows the truth. What you are asking now is something I never wanted. I love you very much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. All I ask of you is to give it another year before moving ahead, for the sake of the oath we have taken under the hands of God. Yours Faithfully,”
I also wish there was someway I could mention how my W is in the process of repeating the same mistakes her Parents did as I have in the past. For her being on automatic pilot is far worse, since what I seen so far is very much a carbon copy process in the making. I have been exposed to new information that I am using to steer me in a more righteous path.
