I can try to change the subject to something a little more lighter. But I feel that this is me ignoring the sitch and putting things off. My W has made it clear that she is not willing to live like we currently are and wants to start the transition. I do not want to sit back and let her have her way, this is how it always has gone, I want want to make sure that I protect myself and my girls as best as I can.
I do not workout nearly as much as I would like to. When I am home I spend as much time with my girls as I possible can, this does not leave a whole lot of time for me to workout. When I do not have the girls I am staying busy - GALing. I have bought some new clothes, which got me positive comments from my W. I do need to put back on some positive weight. I lost 30+ pounds because of a loss of appetite and with a little effort I can put on some muscle weight. Maybe this will have a positive impact on my R maybe it will not. I feel no matter what I do I cannot change her heart. She has to do this for herself. I'm just going to keep praying that she will have a change of heart and choose our family.
As for the tension between us there was a lot. Now it seems since my W has made up her mind on exiting our M the amount of tension has decreased drastically. As for us being friendly I try but I get no response from her. She is cold to me and blames me for the majority of our sitch.
I should also mention that since my email the otherday to my W were I described my part in our sitch she is asking me if I have been telling people this. Again she does not want to look like the bad guy she is looking for me to fall on the sword. No matter what happens my W is the one breaking up our family not me. I just have to deal with the shattered pieces as best as I can.
Your advice about having my W talk to our 5D is good. When the time comes I will ask her to have that conversation. I won't have the initial conversation but will be there to support my DD.
