Have you spoken to your Dr. about these uncontrollable moods that you get into? Those concern me, especially the one from last week, the one you mentioned you were in when you didn't get to finish your post...you were depressed, almost "suicidal".
I'm certainly not going to try to diagnose you, not qualified to do that...but I would recommend talking with your Dr. It's very possible that you need to be on some medication to help level you out a bit. If you do not know what's wrong with you you may have a chemical imbalance going on that could be easily treated...that would make you feel emotionally out of kilter.
Do yourself a favor, take care of yourself, make yourself a Dr's appointment....today!
