Not feeling too good at the moment. For the past couple of months i have been gradually feeling more and more depressed. The strong positive person that i became during the separation seems to have completely gone and i don't know how to get her back.
I have gone back to being the person i was before the split and obviously i'm scared that H will want to leave me again. I don't know why it's happened, i should be the happiest person alive - i have everything i could possibly wish for. I am this week, miserable person, who gets everything wrong, i cry all the time, hardly a good role model for my children!! So, i'm not exactly very attractive to H at the moment.
I can't remember how i became the confident, strong person i was a few months ago, but i really wish i could get her back.
I seem to feel worse when H is around, maybe i feel under pressure - i just don't know!
