18 mos and counting...

[MonicaP]

I'm anxious about the decision to meet or not to meet w/ H this week, I could use some insight.

I wonder WHY he wants to meet...I've come up w/ a few options:

(1) he wants to tell me he's ready for divorce and will be filing
(2) he wants to know if I am about to file (he may suspect something)
(3) he simply wants to talk about our S4.5
(4) he wants to play the whole pursuit/distancing game

In any case, I just feel too vulnerable to talk with him in person. For months now we have just swapped emails and very casual conversation. I try to keep any convo focused on S4.5, but mostly I try not to talk to him at all ( only polite when he comes over to be w/ S4.5).

I guess I'm really fearful of hearing about how happy he is now, how he's finally the man he's meant to be (BS!),how OW is his soul-mate, etc. I'm not sure if he would even bring up anything like that, but I don't want to be in the position of discussing our R if he's still not interested in trying to save our M. And that I am almost 100% certain is not the case. Last week he was wearing what I call his pseudo wedding ring - some Goth inspired ring he probably got w/ Ow in mind.

I thought it was sort of strange though, when he asked me to meet him, that he had tears in his eyes both when he asked and after I told him I would think about it. I interpreted it as guilt - guilt that he knew he was about to finalize things with me.

I just don't know what to do. Should I meet him or not? Please help me decide.