Advice Needed!

[glamgirl]

Thanks so much hb2. I am still in the angry and sad mode most of the time. Having angry thoughts when I am frustrated raising 3 kids on my own with no financial, emotional or physical support. I get so angry and shake my head and ask how can he do this to us.

Then I get sad in thinking that my M is done. It feels done. Each day I am wondering WHY am I bothering with someone who has no morals, integrity, or the stamina to want us to work. Why am I fighting this. I feel like I should just let this go and move on.

He does watch the kids every Sunday at our house. Yesterday he didn't sound good. I asked how he was doing and he just shrugged his shoulders. He said I looked nice and asked how I was doing. I said very cheery just great!

I did fix a meal for him and the kids and one that he asked for. He usually calls me everyday except for the weekends, but it is always about his work or mine, never about R or how are the kids. This also frustrates me.

At times he talks about how bitter he is and then on the otherhand he is not deserving. This is so confusing for me. Which is it? When he left on Sunday I said see you next Sunday. If he calls this week I just don't feel up to taking his calls. I feel we are going NO where. So if he does call before Sunday I am politely going to send him an e-mail that I will see him on Sunday? I know then he may never want contact with me, but I am ok with this, I feel he needs to feel a sense of loss. How is he going to feel this if we talk daily like nothing is wrong. There is a whole bunch wrong H and it starts with talking, which he just isn't going to do right now.

Hb2, how often do you have communication with H and what is that communication like?

I am going to try to not let him consume my thoughts, that it why I think once a week contact would be better for me rather than this chatting daily, but getting NO where.