Need Veteran Piecer's Advice - desperately!!!

[Heartbroken]

Well I finally slept fairly well - first time since Thursday - I think it was b/c I let myself talk to H for the first time since Friday AM.

They are on their way home (in Chicago now) and I can't wait to see the kids! I think I will be away when they get here - I want to avoid H until D's bday June 4th. I think we will talk but I cannot see him without him seeing the sadness in my eyes right now. I am slowly detaching once again and it's so hard - just talking to him last night (no R talk at all) eased my mental state so I could sleep.

I need to wean myself off him once again - my brain knows that I only want him if he wants me but my heart huts soooo bad without him...I feel pathetic once again.

Off to grocery shop and plan meals for the kids and I this week!

Therapist says I need to stay off this site so much - limit my time - not sure what to do anymore...