Holly- the process of him coming home started in like March - he didn't make it home until July. He kept being wishy washy. When I started to really move on he got scared and jumped on the fast track and I believed that he had changed. I didn't want to take the chance of turning him down and having him disappear for good , I made a choice I shouldn't have b/c I was scared.

I really at this point don't care about leaving him out in the dark with regrets - he made this choice not me. Sounds mean I know but I have 5 little ones that need their dad around and he is nowhere. I do not feel bad for him.

I have tried to help him- he doesn't want counselling he is afraid they will tell him he is wrong) he doesn't want my help and by his mean words he doesn't want me by his side for nothing. I can't continue being hurt like this.

He made this choice


Love,lisa

Me:37
H:38
6 kids
first bomb 8/05 (ow involved)
piecing 7/06
second bomb 3/07 ow involved
wash rinse repeat....
huge move to start over 2/11
more affairs
H left for good 8/12