There is more to my sitch going on, and I seem to need to explain everything about it in order to show the whole picture.
I have been given professional advice about the condition of my M - especially that of my W......who is hiding money from me and is reluctant to help out with some late bills. I am paying for everything, and I now understand that I am being used. I am convinced she has no love for me anymore and has made up her mind a long time ago......but you are right that she cannot move due to her inability to support herself.
The A is a dead issue to me now. Yes, I obsessed, yes I was beating a dead horse, but the only thing that matters now is that OM is still in the picture (whatever...I don't care anymore about that)....and I have been trying to get her to go to counseling since November. Well, no such luck.
What kind of a spouse that "wants" to be in a marriage refuses to go to M counseling?????? It is about ME and HER now.....
ME and HER.
So, can someone tell me why she is not willing to get our problems out in the open with a professional? Because OBVIOUSLY I cannot solve all of her problems, let alone mine!
I am doing things for me - more so than before.
I am involved in my art business (it will be my career for the rest of my life....and I am working hard at it to be a sought-after illustrator.)
I am joining my friend's church......and feel very comfortable with this as I am gaining a new family and an excellent support structure.......
I am working out, taking care of my stress this way.
Basically, I am doing the things that I felt I was held back doing by my W....she will not go to church with me, much less bring in a professional to help out our M. (I have a REAL PROBLEM with this...)
And I also agree that time is on my side....but I cannot wait on her and wallow in despair and think about her anymore......I want to use whatever time GOD gave me on this earth to be truly happy and "fix myself".....my W is always welcomed to join me, but I just beleive she has no more room in her heart for me.
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~
