Need Veteran Piecer's Advice - desperately!!!

[Heartbroken]

Thanks LOvely Olive and Husband for checking on me!

It's been a rough weekend - despite keeping myself VERY busy...

SPent way to much time cleaning this empty house...been talking to a ton of friends...went looking for potential condos for me if H decides he cannot return back to us.

I guess the condo exploration was good - gives me peace of mind knowing what I will move to if it comes to that. Wish he could just snap out of it.

My daughter left me a note on my pillow wishing I was going with them and she stated she knows that if it were not for all that I was doing this family would not be together right now. She thanked me for trying my hardest in keeping us together - someday she will call her dad on his true efforts....

I am meeting GF today for shopping...

I am having a REAL hard time sleeping even with a glass of wine last night. THe waves of sadness have returned but I am detaching again. H got on the phone last night and I was very short and to the point with him asking him to put S9 back on. I just need to distance myself - I have been to good to him, have been loving him unconditionally and I think he thinks he can just come back at any time that I will always be waiting here for him. I plan to not be home when they get back - have the kids call me when they are in the house and have H leave b4 I come home. I need to go dark - just for my detachment sake...

I hope everyone is having a restful memorial weekened! Take care of yourselves!

God will only dish out what I can handle and what is meant to be is meant to be - either I get my best friend back or the peace I truly deserve at this point..

HB