Hey Matilda,

Yes, it's long and tough, but it IS the Army and we are going to war, so it's not an issue.

Well, its Memorial Day weekend, the start of the summer. It should be the start of my favorite season of the year. Cookouts, beach, vacation. All the things that families do together. I’m sitting at Ft. Bragg NC, and will work 18 hour days right through the weekend on my way to Iraq. The last part of the previous sentence doesn’t bother me at all……I desperately miss the first part, and think I may never be there again.

Talked to W. last Saturday. It was cordial, and we even laughed a little. Sent a couple of emails telling her I was going to withdraw some $ from our account. I have not taken a cent out of the bank account since last September. Once I came on active duty, I sent every cent home. I am not going to be a martyr over this. I need money too, and I earn most of it, so too bad.

She does not contact me at all. If I contact her, it’s because I want to know about my kids from her perspective. Both of them were pretty sad when I left.

Any ideas how or if I should try and contact her at all, or just leave it up to her. She has always accused me of not being intimate and communicative before. I am getting so tired of this, but boy do I miss my intact family, especially during holiday season. I am really glad to be around others with a similar purpose here, however.