OTB,

That was great, great stuff -- I'm archiving that -- and thanks, cuz I needed to hear that right now.

I'm pretty much in that place, not to worry.

I am just some final, irrefutable evidence away from confrontation and exposure. It will be nasty, NASTY stuff, especially the latter, but it needs to be done.

And you're right -- the choice will then be clearly HERS.

I cannot "change" her.
I cannot "improve" her.
I cannot, with elegent prose, heartfelt emotion or even steely manliness, reengage her back into our marriage.

Only SHE can do that, and it can't be done while she's allowing (and returning) the flirtations and the deception of someone else, which I will point out to her.

Everyone, I will be off for Chicago in about an hour, and will only have periodic internet access while there. I WILL be checking in, though, and would very much appreciate your thoughts, encouragement, and PRAYERS.

It's going to be a long, ugly haul . . . I think I best add some Kevlar to my jacket.

Choc.