I feel as though the last 9 months of MC has been a total waste Yes, like what you worked and hoped to happen was smoke and mirrors.
I want to hold on but right now I am at a very weak point in my life and don't know if I can anymore Holding on to the hope? I know it can be difficult to change directions.
It might not be much help but (((((Heywyre))))). From what I have read of what you have posted I see a good person in you.
