Ok, i new the conversation was coming, and we just had it this morning.
I know her way too well. Basically everything i said were the reasons she wants to buy a place instead of renting.
She was very candid with me concerning why she "needs" to move into a place on her own. In her own words she basically said - she feels frustrated and in limbo, because in her mind she has moved on and has this picture she wants, but is stuck in our house. She says our house (the one she picked out and had to have) doesn't feel like home. She already has the kids beds picked out for her new place.
I told her I understood her feelings, and pretty much said what I laid out in the previous post. I am guilty for talking to much though. I need to learn how to make my comments short, sweet, and to the point.
She also said something, that i'm not sure how to decipher. She said for us to have a chance of ever getting back together she needs to do this.
Its so crazy, she knows that the reason our relationship fell apart was us not making it a priority and us not working on it. And now that I am 125% available she doesn't want to work on it, and feels like her life will be happier and more fulfilling alone. Of course there is the OM. And i know that he plays a huge role in her not wanting to work on us.
I feel like a pawn. Its like she knows i love her, so she might as well have fun with this guy and see where it takes her, and that he can make her happier. I only hope that she wakes up before my kids have to be exposed to that BS.
I am so tired, i think I am going to avoid her for a while.
