That's too funny about your sister. My sister is in WA and we try to talk daily, but I feel like my marriage is all consuming and since it's not happy, I don't call as often cuz I cry a lot... LOL!!

I did something bad. I think I chased. I thought I was being flirtatious so I guess I don't know the difference... is there one? See, I told you how I asked DH if he could come get 7yoDS tonight. Now, not that I don't want my DS here with me, but when he's with DH, I feel better cuz then DH is at home. Right? So I said, why can't you get him later since it's not a school night and he said he'd call. Well, I asked again at the game today and he said I must have planned this with 7yoDS cuz he said the same thing too. I swear I didn't. I told DH I wanted my goodbye kiss there (before the game) and I bit his lower lip. I left the game early so I could get 1 1/2 hours at the Y, and it was between innings, so I went up to him and told him I was leaving. He kissed me and I left. When, I got to the Y, I texted him saying "trust me, if i had a plan, it wouldn't be DS sleeping with you ;oP" He didn't respond. \:\(

On the way home, I started to have a panic attack... where I can't breathe and my heart races. Haven't had these in over 6 months... more like 9 months!! I just get so scared that it's over.

I guess one good thing was last night, I shared with him "homework" we had been given from our C. He said he didn't do his, but he had been doing his daily positive thoughts (where it gives us a positive thought and we have to put down a specific memory.) Well, again, I think it's BS cuz I still have positive memories. He said he's been doing that every day. It's a 7 week process to get your spouse to start thinking positive about you and it should eventually become a habit. I haven't done it since our last counseling session where he said if he had to do it all over again, he wouldn't marry me... that he wasn't proud of my accomplishments... he wast attracted to me... oh, it just piled on from there. Heartbreaking!! (Believe nothing they say and believe less than 50% of what they do, right?)

Well, I better get in the shower. Tomorrow's another day... let's hope it's a better one... it's surely got to be better than today, right? ;\) Have a good night.