H came today to take S21 for a spin on his motorcycle. Even though I am working hard at detaching I would like for him to want to see me,but I haven't seen him for a month. I get angry at myself because I feel rejected when he only does things with the kids. On those times when I allow my ego to get the best of me I think "Damn you for replacing me with her" Then I quiet my racing heart and think well Annie, for this part of his journey he has, so accept it and get you own life.
I found out from my son that the OW crashed our van. She hit and killed adog. She drives fast. They are angry at the dogs owner and are trying to get them to pay for the damages. LOL I found this so hilarious. The irony of it is that she allows her two dogs to roam free as well.
There are people coming to view the house on Monday and I have mixed feelings. Part of me wants to continue and get a life for myself and a fresh start will be good. Owning something myself will be satisfying too. But then I think... am I giving up? Any thoughts. I feel alittle angry right now and a whole lot pathetic for being jealous that he came to see the kids but left before I got home from work.
