I don't know how people do this. I know I want to make it work, but it feels as if it is nothing but a F'ing game from the WAS attitude. She has no emotions whatsoever, but says things back and forth on her daily dialogue. My emotions, not around her, go up so high and down so low that I wonder sometimes if can continue doing this. Even though I want her in my life as my W, I am wondering if anyone is worth it for putting me through this. Life would be so much easier if I just did what she originally said she was going to do and go file for D, and then truly move on with my life.
Put up the big red stop sign homie, That ain't right. You would NOT be better off without her (if you truly love her and you're truly compatible.)
I had those thoughts too man, we all do, but they're not right, they're just the doubt in yourself bubbling up to the surface. Let them GO! Don't bottle them up, let them go. I like to imagine a giant vault that I'm opening and I watch those feelings just float away. It works! I need a giant vault because I was the king of repressed feelings and I felt anything smaller just wouldn't be realistic to hold all that crap
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
