Balancing Act

[BeingMe]

I used to live in your province in one of them thar bigger cities, and I was chatting to a friend there yesterday, and she commented on how it had just started snowing. The weather there is unbelievable, which is why we moved as far west as a person can get. Hehehe!

As for your sitch ... I remember it from the beginning then I lost your thread, and then re-found it again. I must say that you have moved on already from how it was in the beginning. You sound so much more detached, and philosophical about it all. I do see that you are still hoping for a R with your W, even if it's just a friendship. But, consider this, that maybe it's too soon for a friendship? Perhaps you need to give it more time, to give yourself more closure. I know, I know, it's hard to close the door, but you can always leave a little window open for future possibilities (and no-one knows what lies in the future) and ya don't have to lock the door. I know you feel life will be empty without her, but realistically speaking, it probably won't last too long before you find someone else to love, and there is more to life than M, IMHO. Anyway, you can only go through with the D when you are ready, but don't hold back because of the fear of not being married to your W. ('Eh, hope I'm making sense here!) If you're going to stand for your M, then do so because you want her, not because you need her ... there's a huge difference. Then, you must have a plan, and you must be patient (like, the patience of Job, because it's one of the hardest things I ever did, and I'm not a patient person, by nature.)

Keep taking care of yourself, and your wonderful children. It's nice that you have a single FF to hang out with. Sounds like you have a good weekend planned. All I have are beautiful, sunny days on the island, possibly gardening while my D14 goes to the lake to swim with some of her friends. Oops, sorry, didn't mean to brag ....