Why do these things happen

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I don't know how people do this. I know I want to make it work, but it feels as if it is nothing but a F'ing game from the WAS attitude. She has no emotions whatsoever, but says things back and forth on her daily dialogue. My emotions, not around her, go up so high and down so low that I wonder sometimes if can continue doing this. Even though I want her in my life as my W, I am wondering if anyone is worth it for putting me through this. Life would be so much easier if I just did what she originally said she was going to do and go file for D, and then truly move on with my life.