My heart has been completely torn apart

[Yoyowife]

I know what you mean about protecting your mental state. You want to know if they are still involved, but you don't necessarily want to know when and what is going on. The OWH used to call me and tell me when they were together and it tore me up. He would call late at night and then I couldn't sleep. I knew it was going on, I just didn't want details. I got where I would turn the ringer off of the phone so I wouldn't hear the phone.