I swear I understand everything you're going through!! It takes a LOT for me to not drive by DH's work let alone his hotel (and this weekend, his apt.) It's only a studio, so I know that can't be long term.
I'm soooo proud of myself. I'm totally freaking about this dinner tonight and I soooo wanted to ask him if he was really going there or what? I didn't, but I did ask why he can't pick up 7yoDS and he said cuz he'd probably be getting back about 10:30. I said the boys are out of school, so it doesn't matter. He said he'd call.
I make him breakfast (hard boiled eggs) and lunch to take to work every morning. This morning he was excited about his sandwich... LOL!
He kissed me goodbye like normal, but I kissed him back 2 more times... longer the 2nd time and more like a finishing peck the 3rd. TMI? LOL!!
Anyway, we talked about this weekend and how 16yoDS wants friends to come over Saturday. I said I didn't know about our plans and he said he just planned on yard work. He also said that he didn't know how 13yoDS staying with him Friday and Saturday night would affect our date night and if we had any plans. I said I didn't know if he was even interested. He said we could talk about it later. I was bad and did joke (again) about when it would be my turn to the spend the night. He said something about my night job that I took a LOA from and how if I was still doing that, he would be here those nights for the kids. Thinking maybe I should come off LOA???? (leave of absence)
OMGosh!! Your kids sound like mine... especially my 16yo. NO teachers are smart enough for him. The 13yo? He just finished 7th and is already talking about graduating early like our star football quarterback did this year... LOL!! Gotta love kids!!
I'm off to work... late already, but HAD to reply to you!! I'll check back later this afternoon.
Don't beat yourself up too badly about last night. I think we'd all be lying if we didn't do or have thought of doing the same thing!! (((hugs))) Don't give up hope... hang in there!!
I'll be back this afternoon... have a good day, okay?!!
