Please SLOW DOWN. You have been here before; I remember, and I'm sure you do too. I have felt the same way, and I only have two kids! It is overwhelming at times. You do NOT want B to have the kids; you know that.
Are you still on the anti-anxiety meds? You will probably feel better in a few weeks once your hormones settle down a bit more. In the meantime, just try to stay away from making any decisions, and if possible, stay away from B. Ok?
Love to you, Nicola
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