I want him back.... does he want me?

[bright 2 morro]

I am fairly new to this since it has been two months since my bomb. I did read Love must be tough and it does help. I have not fully picked it up. I still am not as tough as I should be. But I reread the book as I need to. I have never read so many self help books in my life. I guess what I am trying to do is learn how to show him that I have changed through all of this. Not just telling him. I am also learning that I do not need to show him how much I really want him back. I need to do that through my actions.

I guess I just realized (just now typing). This is the same thing that I want from him. I had a conversation with him at the begining of the week where I told him that I feel he just hates me. He told me that he did not hate me and it was quite the contrary then asked me why I felt that he hated me. I proceeded to tell him that his actions speak louder than words. I guess I expect him to show me that he does not hate me not just tell me.

I just now realized that that I guess that is the way I need to treat this situation. I do not need to tell him that I want him back. I need to asses the reasons that may have lead to this and then work on changing "my faults" in this.

I am not saying you have not done that but I am learning (slowly) that I can not pine for him to him.

I hope this helps and good luck.
mimi