Brue, Thank you so much for your response. While I know I am young (trust me I have heard all the speeches :)) if he and I had already had at least on child, I would be content waiting this out forever. And that is where I get stuck and why the decision to wait longer or not to is so hard. It just stinks when there is this ticking clock in my head. ANd yes I know I still have lots of time... but that is if he comes back, if not I am back to square one and I know myself well enough to know that I haven't healed my hurt and I haven't dealt with the pain of mourning all the dreams that I have that included him. And I know it will take time to mourn that, and take time to find someone and take time to trust that person and take time to try to get pregnant etc...etc. (And no I don't see my XH coming back as a "means to an end" way of me getting pregnant.) If he came back and we could not have a child I would be devasted but I would make it through b/c I had him by my side... I don't know I am rambling! Thank you for your kind remarks! R2
