Need Veteran Piecer's Advice - desperately!!!

[Heartbroken]

Well H called RIGHT after the C sesion. Asked if he could come for dinner. I had it all ready (like a good little wife). He laughed on the phone and seemed lighter than he has been for the last couple of weeks.

After dinner he asked to talk to me in our room. C said he should not move back - see if he can keep his lease until it ends - she feels he is not ready to come back. H should also just take the kids to WI (Delevan area and Franklin for my WI support person) to see the family and his friends.

H says he's lighter b/c he talked with another good friend last nite and a mutual friend of both of ours too - so talking about it is helping him. C also said we need to stop talking during the day and that we should stop all activities together. H needs to fix himself first. H said he told the C he's more ready for D than I am. He is still on the D side but I really feel he is trying to fix himself this time around.

I now need to know if I should move to the separated group??? I hate this moving around stuff. I have to get real good at DB'ing since our contact will be limited. We do have to deal with kids issues and S9 is in baseball this summer. We are supposed to be going to Milw over the 4th of July who knows if that will happen???

I just plan to DB my butt off to show him how much he is missing by letting me go. Still sad inside but detaching better each day. I made a mistake asking him if I should look at condos this weekend and he said yes, probably. Not a smart question but I never got teary eyed and after he took S9 to ball practice he called and I let it go to voice. He then called the house and told D12 to have me call him. SO I did and he said he's worried we talked to much about his C session and we may be over analyzing and I said I he was doing that right now. I told him I was fine with little contact, ended the call first.

I then text msg: Please take care of YOU first. I will be fine

He texted back Thanks!

I just need to see if he does miss me/us and if he doesn't then I guess I have to let go...

He just txt: U may want the apt for the next 3 mos? Something to think about...

I really don't want to leave my home even though it would be less work and he could really see how dealing with the kids and a house is a lot of work. Not sure how this summer is going to go - wow that thought is bringing me down...

D12's bday in June 4th - are we to be together? I hate this rollercoaster ride!

Thanks for your help!!!

HB