I know that in a few days you may regret your decision but I also think you are the only one who can decide on the fate of your Marriage.
You know him best.
I know that there were many times I just wanted things to be done as the pain was too much to handle.
I know how hard it is to have a load of young kids and no Husband around to help. I too grew resentful of my husband and wanted him to rot in hell for all eternity....And after a couple of days I went back to standing.
The good part is that you are the one who filed so you can always withdraw if you change your mind.
Maybe he needed a wake up call???
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.