Why do these things happen

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Well I am not sure if I ever broke her trust in this matter. There was just some things I had never told her, or in fact told nobody in my life until just recently, she happened to be the first. But then again, I suppose it could be seen as a trust issue for never telling her about it, guess I never thought about it in that way.

I on the other hand was protecting myself from the pain "drinking" and I do not believe so much in that I was saving her from my pain, even though I probably was, I was more saving myself from the precieved embarrasment that I have been holding onto more than half my life.