I agree. I think that it's the unreality of it all -- at least in terms of what I thought we were -- that's the biggest hurdle for me. I was sure that no matter what, we were soul mates, and I could point to so many things that happened that I thought proved it. Now... who knows.
And I think it's that reason I'm trying DB & willing to wait: that despite it all (so far anyway), I truly love this man who I KNOW I knew, and I think I still do.
Our eldest son's name is a combination of both my name and H's name -- like Brianna would be for Brian and Anna -- and I was wondering what it would do to him and his name if H & I D. I mean, how could he have a name that was both of us if we weren't?! A friend said, though, that I shouldn't look at it from this broken perspective, but to consider instead that it showed how much H & I did love each other at one time. Friends are such blessings!
