Choc, you have to be yourself. If this felt right to you, then bravo for doing it in the face of all the "experts'" advice to the contrary. At the end of the day, you have to feel good and solid about your own behavior. I like your fierce defense of your actions. You've got to believe in what you're doing-- you're There; we're way over here. No matter what you do, however, we're behind you and wishing you what's best for you in the long run (whatever that turns out to be).