I was EXACTLY where you are, emotionally-speaking, almost about 12 months ago to the day. And I sent my wife plenty of emails just like your latest one.
Didn't work.
What did work, though, was me backing right off, me getting on with my own sh!t, and me letting her figure out things for herself.
Which she did. Or at least she *is*.
Just like you're doing right now, I spent waaay too much time willing her to answer questions that she didn't even know how to answer.
Sure, write her emails, letters, poetry, whatever. Just make sure you burn 'em instead of sending them. She knows *exactly* how you feel without you needing to keep telling her.
Carry on doing what you're doing and she'll run even faster.
