18 mos and counting...

[MonicaP]

Hi Cat03,

Great advice, thanks. And thank you for your kind words of support. Yes, I've seen Mrs. Doubtfire and love that part. I've thought of it often.

I think I'm doing ok with how I treat H, like you said, like the neighbor 2 doors down. But the resentment still creeps up on me from time to time and it is difficult to let go of.

He's going out of town this weekend "on business" (conveniently a 3-day weekend) and the fact that I don't believe him is really hard to keep to myself. But I do because I know if I confront him he will just be defensive and accusatory. My T suggests I say to him at some point - "there's no need for you to spin tales with me". I liked it when I heard it, but I think if I confront him at all it will only be a waste of time. He's so deep into his denial he would find some way to turn it around on me.

Meanwhile, he will be picking S up from school twice this week and has been fairly "nice" lately. I wonder if he senses something is going on. Oh well, it doesn't matter I guess.

I hope I can get to the point of total acceptance and let H go, but it won't happen today. I miss the man I married and I don't know how long it will take to let him out of my heart.

Thanks for checking in and for your words of wisdom.