Happy Together at Long Last!!!

[Jen_Jam]

I hear you all ... still in my cave about this a bit. But I can't live my life waiting for the next bomb... it will drive me crazy. I DO NOT want a R where I constantly have to watch what I say and do for fear of making him walk off. I cannot have a R filled with fear.
This is one thing I will have to work on for myself .. SD I really identify with the PSD - it IS like waiting for the next gunshot. I cannot live like that. I choose to live my life differently. I hope H will be with me.

Someday, we will "just be". To be ourselves. To be in a R and give in that R and expect nothing in return. To allow our partners to be who they are. That is far easier said than done.

This is my ultimate goal. Right now I have to break that down into baby steps.

H is being really nice to me again tonight ... not all I want but he's trying, he's heard me and that's really important. I would do well to focus on the positives. I'm trying not to become a WAW because I could not put my hand on my heart and say a D would make me happy, Sure, it would be the easier option but if I did it I know I would, in years to come, think "what if?".