I have never posted to you before but read this post and ~wow~ she sure is testing you. All I can say is you have the patience of a SAINT! Take care and God bless.. Hope this week is better for you!
Thank you Alimari. That is an interesting way of framing this and I must keep in mind. This is a test. I believe that to some degree, whether she is concious of this or not she is testing me, challenging me. I really believe this because in the past when I have backslid its almost an "AHA!" moment for her as she pounces on the opportunity to say to me, "see, I knew you didn't really change, I knew it".
Saint? I feel more like a Knight of the Crusades. I've been so wrong in how I was with her and my children that my only path to salvation is through this Crusade.
