GEL, what I was saying is that I'm done making gestures to 'save' our marriage. I'm done sacrificing how I feel for the betterment of our M until I see some major efforts from him as well. And if I don't see those efforts, I won't keep trying. I still plan to get rid of my truck because I already said I would and I plan to step up that effort within the next couple weeks.
I did't mean to imply that he physically threw me out, but he made it clear he did not want me in there and that there would be dire consequences if I remained in the bed. Call it what you will, but staying would have meant forcing my way.
I'm pretty sure he understood that I did not mean I was leaving...it hadn't occurred to me that he would think that and I would feel the need to clarify but he's called about the graduation which means he knows what I meant.
I'm not leaving, but I'm done making overt gestures of trying. Just like Nops said, being finished playing on his terms doesn't mean I have to go anywhere. I will be here at least until next March and the topic of leaving, even if it's about leaving after that date, will not come out of my mouth again.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
