Everytime he criticizes me, instead of getting mad like I used to, I now ignore his comments and walk away. No arguments. Leaves him thinking.
You are so right Lavendar. I need to get a thicker skin plus I have to understand that even what I don't perceive as pushing, he might. As much as I don't like it, I have to let go of what happens with us and know that I am going to be okay no matter what. I do get there but then when I spend time with my H, the vicious cirle starts and I seem to repeat my mistakes. I just try to reconnect. I try to be sweet, understanding, fun, flirtatious, etc....maybe doing some of these things are just manipulations on my part because when I don't get the desired reaction, I get frustrated.
It is funny because I do start to feel stronger when I am not my H for a while. When I spend time with him, I feel like my strength gets drained. After I spend time with my H, I get depressed and it takes me a few hours to snap out of it. I only start to get my strength back when I feel like I am taking control of MY situation. I would just like to know how to be steady and in control of me (at least most of the time), even before, during and after I spend time with my H.
