Thank you. It feels so good to read your post. I'm not going soft though. I realize this is just the beginning. And more than likely there is a long hard ride in store for me.

I went to the gym today, had one of those gym days that just feel good. No lack for energy, and really hit it hard.

Then I met with a new attorney today. Once i learned who my wife was consulting with, i realized i was out-gunned. Well, my new attorney is the head of the family law division for one of the largest law firms in the city. She knew immediately the lawyer my wife is seeing. Been trying cases against eachother for the last 25 years. Apparently they are the two baddest bitches in the business. It looks like at the very least i am in for a crazy legal show. She was matter of fact, asked all the right questions, and recommended a really good family therapist.

My new lawyer was really nice.. She made it clear that i should continue keeping it low key, stay away from relationship talks, avoid decisions, etc... She recommended slowing things down and maybe it would give my wife the time she needs to realize the grass isn't always greener. I wanted to tell her I've heard all this advice before from some good friends online.

She also said i have a good case for joint custody (I have been very involved in my kids lives since birth, and am the one who gets them ready every morning for school, makes their lunches, and picks them up 2/3 days out of five.) Money wize i don't really care, but i trust her to protect me if it comes to that. But honestly i know i'm going to win my wife back, so its not coming to that.

I also found the time to buy some new clothes today, went to a really nice place in the city across from the law office and got a few items. It felt good to try on things and just have the stuff fit. Felt like i was 20 again, and i could pull something off the rack and it fit like a glove. Its amazing what losing 20lbs will do for you.

Anyways. As you probably can tell I feel good today, and I'm going to keep at it. I have new business ideas flooding my head, and instead of just thinking about them, i'm going to just start doing them.

Anyways, thanks for you guys support. It means a lot to know other people are out there thinking about my family and helping me get through this. I hope i can be as much help to someone else here one day. I'm keeping you guys in my thoughts.