Thank you. He is just lovely and does smell really good. I have this really nice feeling of completion - like wow, what a neat opportunity to love another little one, kiss his soft skin, nurse him, cuddle him and when he runs off to Kindergarten someday I don't think I will have a single regret. I never said to myself "Gee, I really want four children" but four seems to be a really nice number now. My 15 year old is starting to think of driving and college, my 10 year old daughter is starting to experience puberty, my 3 year old is going potty independently, talking like a big girl and I still have a little one to make silly faces at. It is just - Nice!
Of course there is always another side to the coin. My H is doing a lot of work to make up for my maternity leave, he is gone a lot, leaves the house dressed for work and such and I feel weirdly lonely and abandoned. I told him so. I also told him that I appreciate all his hard work. He says he feels lonely too. I wish that our conversations ever made it past this point to new actions/interactions. I liked your list on another thread - I alternate between quite a few of those less attractive choices - moping, hiding, whining blah, blah, blah.... Just depends.
